I went badminton just now . ahhhhh!!! song lahh XD very song seriously . I love badminton , I love it because I watch the shuttle cock as you . When everytime I hit it , I use all my energy to hit it . You hurt me . I am depressing -.- I want to shout it out . But , I can't T.T I just can't shout it out . So , I told my cousin these thing . She teach me how to forget about all those bitchy thing . I just look the shuttle cock as you . I hit it with ALL MY ENERGY . But , at last when I saw your messages . It's hurt me again and again . Do you know that when everytime we chat you say tiok her . I really very uncomfortable . I asked you : "How are you ? " you do reply me this and it's really hurt me a lot "I still miss her very much when she not around >.<" What the hell ?? I am the one who love you that much but at last SHE is the one who deserve your love . It is TOTALLY UNFAIR to me right ?? But , I don't mind . I just want you to be happy . Nothing special . D: If you are happy when I do that I will just do it . Okaay ?? I don't need any reward . If you want to give me . I just need one thing . I WANT TO STOP LOVING YOU !!! that is all . Can you give me this ?? Let me forget you . Let me FORGET everything about you . I don't ever hate , blame or even angry SHE . SHE done nothing wrong . YOU are the one who did wrong . You should be responsible to all these FUCKING things . Do you know that it is really frustrating ?? But at last , I am the one that need to suffer all these . It's really hard to come out from a hurt . Zzz =.= Do you know that ?? SHE 's Birthday is coming . SHE wants a present . I told you . You said that you will buy a present for her . So , SHE you need to keep it properly okaay ?? I beg you . Seriously , you asked me will I makan cuka ?? I said no , and why should i ? But , do you know that I WILL !! IDOIT . You make me once again cry . When i am typing all these I am crying all the way . Okaay , I still haven eat for today . Not even one sweet . -.- only plain water . I have no mood to eat . I cried when just now I am having badminton training . Zzz D: I will just stop here . If not I will think sooooo much , and I will cry and cry non stop tho . My parents saw it . Ask me why ? I cheated them . I felt guitly now .