Being thankful <3

Do you guys having a bunch of caring & lovely best friends?
I think you guys do.
Then you surely know about the feel of how they care, love & support you.
My gang do so. They always do so.
Maybe in other people eyes (translate from chinese directly which means 在别人的眼里) we're only good & our relationship are not strong at all.
But for me they're actually my part of family that God forget to give them to me.
Being so much thankful that actually God still bring them to me as my best friends.
He didn't forget to bring them to my life which I really appreciate it.
When I get insulted, they fight back, they come to me and talk to me, they go to them and have a talk with them.
Ya. I knew that fight back or talk to them isn't a good way to solve these problems.
But at least I can feel that they actually care about me and that's why they will do something. Am I right?
I'm so damn lucky to have these kind of best friends.
And this is what we call best friends.
So now, I would like to say something to them.
Thank you so much guys.
Thank you for being so lovely.
Thank you for the supports & cares.
Thank you for being there for me when I'm really down.
Thank you for standing up for me when I get insulted.
Thank you so much deeply in my heart which I really cannot use words to describe it.
Really being so thankful that God brought you guys to me.
Now. I'm not going to care how other people say about my bad & started to ignore everything.
I wouldn't let anything to tear us apart and we're going to have a long lasting relationship.
I'll do what I promised you guys & myself
- Study hard
- Ignoring craps
- Being happy
- Stop battling
- Live my own life
- Don't mention anything about the pass
- Don't be sad with only my thoughts which maybe true maybe isn't
- Be a successful person
- Don't let my dreams only dreams etc
Everything should come to an end.
And the end is having you guys & being successful.
Successful in many ways :)
Last but not least, thank you & be together as long as we could.

Get a life nah.

Think before you say something bad about other people.
Don't ever think that everyone is going to believe what you say or what you posted.
Yeah. Maybe someone is going to believe what you said in front of you.
But they have eyes they have ears, they knew who are right who are wrong.
Childish acts like saying people or shooting people directly or even indirectly is not a kind of bravery.
Every time you say that you are brave after saying us in twitter, don't you think that it's a shame?
Saying how much other people hate us and help them to shoot us is a kindness?
Hello? Do you think that this is a charity?
For you guys, yeah. It's a fun for insulting a person. It's a kind of entertainment.
But you don't know how much it hurts a person personality after you guys insulting a person.
We actually do care a lot how you guys say us, I dare to tell you guys this.
But what can we do? Insult back? Scolding back? Saying back? Or even shooting back?
Sorry no. We are not going to do something that is childish like you guys did. This only make our reputation drop.
Judging someone doesn't define who they are, hey it defines who you are.
Exactly. Whenever you started judge someone, everyone is going to compare between us.
If you are not better than us, your judge is going to point back to you.
For the first time, maybe everyone is going believe what you said.
But later & later if you do that again & again, what do other people think about you then?
Think of it. I believe that you are clever as how I think you are. You have brain to think about these.
Silence doesn't mean I agree with you, it's just your level of ignorance rendered me speechless.
We don't say back or shoot back doesn't mean that you guys are right, it's because I think that this is a type of cheap & bitchy behavior.
By the way, are we really that awesome & adorable which can make you guys having so much & big reaction?
Saying bad about us? That surely means that our life are interesting than yours.
Do we really have such a big influence that almost every of the form 5 students hate us?
If it is real, wow! We're famous eh? We have really big influence on you guys eh? We don't want to famous anyway, we just hope to live our own life.
Apologize also doesn't mean that we're wrong, it's the only thing that we can do to avoid from these craps, it means that we still respect you guys.
Don't think that everyone around you owe you. No. We don't. We are not born to please you guys.
You felt left out? It's your problem. You're the one who cannot join in our conversation. We didn't purposely do it.
Why other people can join but you cannot? Don't you think that problems are from you? Think of it la.
Personal attacks like saying how ugly people is, how fat people is , kind of fun also huh?
I'm not going to say anything more about this, cause you neither good.
Posting picture to share our happiness also a kind of sake isit? Or you guys can't be happy like we do then starts saying how we hurt you purposely by sharing our happiness.
We didn't call you to stalk us. You can just scroll off when you saw our photos. But I don't think you can. Cause we're too attractive? xD
Remember your "pro stalker" ? Kinda "PRO" ya. At last also fail to be a stalker.
What else can you guys do except for stalking people, saying bad about people, insulting people, damaging people reputation & desperat-ing for love?
Get a life la please. I believe that you want to have a happy life like us, don't you?
I'm sorry to say this, no life ah. I felt very sorry for this.
Saying something with Chinese
"如果我说我们是太阳，你就是地球；如果我说我们是地球，你就是月亮。"
Get what I mean? You guys are just following our steps our route on how are we living.
You guys are just 20% of our conversation, I believe that we are about 90% of your conversation.
Not going to say anything after this, I believe that revenge going happens on you guys sooner or later :)
The best revenge that we can do now is that live better than you guys like we always do.
Thank you for being so much bitchy so much annoying which actually brought fun and laughter to us.
Without you guys our life are not complete, see how mighty how great how important are you guys to us.
But now, sorry. Get off & live your own life bitches. We're please without you guys. I believe that we are going to live better than now.
Don't try to spoil our relationship, cause you will never success in doing this.
We going to have a long lasting relationship. When I say it I mean it. I appreciate them which you guys don't.
I usually won't be so rude. But now sorry. FUCK OFF BITCHES. NAH!

长大了、成熟了、也坚强了。

经历过一次又一次的伤害，我终于长大了、思想成熟了、更是学会坚强了。
不再理会别人怎么说，也更相信自己的决定
我完成了我所能完成的，至少我尽力了
你不要，我也没办法，反正我也没有勉强你的意思
那些幼稚的把戏，我不演了、我不做了
觉得做了只会让别人觉得你不够大方
比赛，就应该拥有比赛的精神
输就是输了，那都已经成定局了，根本没办法再改变任何的结果
其实，在说别人之前呢，想想是不是真的有这样的事情？
不管什么事情都应该有凭有据，不是有的没的都讲成了个＂有＂字
现场有多少双的眼睛、多少只的耳朵？
不会因为你的一句话而改变了原有的事实
决定不要去理会别人的流言蜚语、也不管有多少人相信你、支持你，只要你问心无愧、相信你自己，那就真的够了
要自己怎么样去相信别人？这就免了，觉得再也没有这个需要了
相信你自己，让别人知道靠自己绝对不是一个问题、让自己更有自信地站在他们的面前，告诉他们：＂没有你们，我也可以活得很好！＂

Sorry, My dear friend!

I'm sorry, my dear friend.
I always wish to say sorry to you cos I'm really rude to you last time.
Not once but lots & lots of time.
Not in front of you but behind of you.
I really never think of being so good with you nowadays.
You are actually a very nice person. A person who can talk to.
Why I didn't even realize last time huh?
We are really too childish that time.
Look back and think of it how immature we are?!
I can't stop laughing on the old us.
We can't even think properly last time.
But, who cares?! One year. Just one more year we are going to leave high school.
After we go for future studies, who knows when will we meet again?
Everytime I think of these stuffs, I start considering can I really put down everything here go for future studies?
Do I really want to start my journey of new life? Do I really willing to left my friends & family.
There are a lot of things to consider before I start my new journey.
But, this is not the time for me to consider these things.
Now it's time for preparing to get better results than last year.
My dear friend, let us work hard together to have a better friendship than pass 3 years ok?
Forgive my childishness.
Forgive my immature thinks.
Thank you for being my friend in the last year.
Thank you for not blaming me for being so rude.
Once again, I'm sorry friend.
:)
如果可以，我希望我们的友情可以像她们一样那么坚固、那么永久 :*

JDZ.

The first day of school, I would like to post something hehehehehehe.

I don't have much time to come up and update my post.

Er. Maybe I should say I'm lazy to do so. Hehehehe. I'm always and you guys knew it I swear.

So maybe, I should say something about 2012 & 2013.

In 2012, I did cry & laugh alot. But laughter is much much more than cry.

How about talk about best friends too?

This year, I knew a gang of crazy & stupid peoples. 

JDZ-JING DIAN ZHU 经典族

Why is this name for this gang huh?

Macam is because we always say jing dian this jing dian that. HAHAHAHA.

Since when we became so good? Em. Since the BBQ night i think?

After that we keep chat by using whatsapp and then become like that ki.
Let me introduce the members of this gang. HEHEHEHE.

Nehh. Orang ini. Nama dia VONG HUI HUI.

I guess most of you guys know who she is.

So famous plus pretty & beautiful.

Ok. I'm serious. 

She likes to say OSHIMAA? xD

She is in 5A what we always say as 5S1.

Syok class tho. HAHAHAHAHA. I mean she has a good results la.

She has many 追求者 oh xD Of course la. She is so prettyyyyy :)

We were in the same class when we were in Form 2 & 3.

Many things happened in pass two years. 

I think we had alot of quarrel.

When I think back of it, I felt so childish.

How can we be so childish?! Omg. But so what?! Time heals! :)

没有人能够知道下一秒会发生什么事

就像我们也没有想到我们可以像现在这样好

Life is really very unpredictable.

There is nothing that we can predict for the next second.

So yeah. I'm really very happy that we can be best friend tho, Hui! :)

This one?! Hng! The guy I hate the most!! Ugh.

Say tiok him jiu pekcek xD

You see his face above really kiam pak right?! xD

His name panggil LIM HOONG YANG

No no no! He changed his name by today called LIM YONG HANG!

By my bm teacher. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Laugh die me woi. xD

He was in 1B and then changed to 2C & 3C. 

Kesian. Pass 3 years we didn't have the yuan fen to be in the same class.

Mana tahu sekarang?! Same class tim! Really don't know should be happy or sad? 

HE IS REALLY VERY LAMEEEEEEEE -.- 

When he laughs, he really could laugh very very very long.

Not funny de stuffs also can laugh idk why.

He is such a happy go lucky person I swear xD

Think tiok his 招牌笑 jiu want laugh hahahahahaha.

He is such a good listener also & LOVE TO SUAN PEOPLE SIENN -.-

Actually, he is really quite nice la. QUITE ONLY*

This person with moustache wear till so smart tim xD

His name CLARENCE VOON.

He is bananananananananana. Ok. Jokking.

No la. He is in 5E what we called 5S5.

He likes to set his hair everytime we go out. 

Whenever he saw mirror, he'll look into the mirror and touch his hair I swear xD

He has such small eyes. Ohya, his nickname is PANG PANG PANG.

Almost everyone call his nickname since Form 1 if I'm not wrong.

He more standard abit no change class woh. 3 years in C class then 5S5.

We went damai together with Beatrice them for 3 years. 3 YEARS MAN. 

How come we can go to the same place for 3 years?! omg.

His baking & cooking skills are really syok xD

Making cards' skills really syok too.

Heard people say want keep fit when came back from Sabah de boh.

But now?! Don't know got start de mah? HAHAHAHAHA.

But anyway, you are shuai enough liao la no need to set your hair everytime you saw mirrors.

And please start your keeping fit plan xD

Hard to find his photo ok. ><

This dage name WONG GAN LUNG.

I can't count how much quarrels we had. Lots & lots.

But so what?! We are still best friend tho.

This year is the fourth year in the same class already. 

LOL. Really bu zhi bu jue four years le.

Er. Those unhappy past I don't want to say too much. Shang gan qing lol.

This person is always the one who encourage me whenever I have problems.

He helped me alot & alot.

Don't think too much about us ok. We are really best friends.

We are more suit to be best friend I swear.

Eh, can start keep fit liao oh xD If not your nv shen run away I don't know oh.

Stop kek that you very pro in what what what ok.

YOU ARE NOT THAT PRO -.-

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE :P

Let me post 2 photos of Jing Dian Zhu xD

We only took 2 photos yeah right.

1st全家福

Yerr. Look like we took at studio.

SEE SEE! HY's SMILE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA xD

 We took this on new year eve. 2013 snake year.

HY why you didn't show your mouth?

GL your face so funny HAHAHAHAHAHA your 1 cacat woi.

Cla, your mouth -.-

Hui, why you smaller than us? ><

Bev, YERR! Why your drawing so cute?! xD HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Sot jor.

Distance is really not a problem, we still can countdown together tho xD

I'm really very happy to have best friends like you all.

I'll appreciate this friendship.

I'm not sure that how long our friendship is going to last but anyway I'll appreciate what I have now.

No one knows what's going on next.

After this year, maybe we are going to difference places for future studies, no one knows.

After that, when are we going to meet again?

After meeting, are we really going to be like this now? Very good? No one knows.

LIFE IS REALLY UNPREDICTABLE.

JDZ, 一句话，有你们真好!

I hope that this coming KL trip every members of JDZ are going.

We are going to produce lots and lots of memories.

There is really nothing better than memories :*

Time flies! One year is really going to pass very very super duper fast.

So, appreciate what we have now.

JDZ forever :*

她们 像女孩的女人♥

我不知道当你们看到标题的时候第一个联想到的到底是谁？

知道的人应该不难猜吧？哈哈！

就是她们、像女孩的女人。

不用我说，你们肯定都知道她们是谁吧？

名副其实的S.H.E.

S-Selina 任家萱

H-Hebe 田馥甄

E-Ella 陈嘉桦

她们是我从小的偶像，以前是、现在是、以后也会是

无可否认的，她们真的很棒

算一算，她们出道也11年了

上个月才合体出了一个新专辑《花又开好了》，相信大多数的人都知道吧？

她们经历的真的很多很多

Selina在前年才不幸遭到爆破效果灼伤，治疗过程虽艰难，但是她从来都没放弃，还当了最美丽的新娘。2011年的时候还发了EP《重做一个梦》

Ella在这期间在事业上也很拼搏，也很幸运的和一位马来西亚帅哥结婚，发了个人首张EP《我就是……Ella陈嘉桦》

Selina & Ella 都立家了，都结婚了

还剩下Hebe还没，之前还传说她是同性恋，我不能确认这是不是真的，不过我相信她

在这期间，她也出了两张专辑，好评如潮！分别是《TO HEBE》& 《MY LOVE》

可能你们认为这专辑的名字也太没有创意了？

不过，重要的不是名字而是专辑里头的努力、坚持。

其实她们的友情真的很让人羡慕

我也真的很希望有这样一段的友情

看照片都可以感觉得到她们的友情有多坚定

她们获奖多得我真的不知道该用什么来形容

不过，她们真的是名副其实的女子天团 :)

我曾经多次听她们的歌听到落泪，是真的很感动很感动 :')

我词穷了，请原谅我！我真的不知道该用什么字眼来形容她们

不如，你们去听听她们的歌，用心听，可能你们可知我的感受？

永远的TOP GIRL♥

永远的女子天团♥

永远的SHERO ♥

像女孩的女人♥

心还是热的 ♥

永远的S.H.E ♥

歪理.

人永远啊都是现实的
当然也包括我
是啊 从一开始就不应该相信的说的话了
不对 应该说是不应该＂再＂相信你
我早就应该知道男生永远都不会改变的
男生就是男生
他们常常说什么典型的女生就是爱吃醋、爱生气、蛮不讲理啦
我看男生也好像好不到哪里去吧？
他们不知道对他们来说一件小小的事情就可以伤害到女生
1）说女生肥、身材不好
2）在女生面前说别的女生有多好
3）在女生面前讨好别的女生
4）把女生当作男生来看待
我必须声明这 不 叫 作 吃 醋！
不管一个女生对你有没有意思，你绝对没有这个资格说一个女生
因为我不觉得这世上有最帅的男生
况且你们永远都不可能谈得上最帅的

你们知道吗？
我永远最重视的就是友情
在爱情上受到伤害根本就不算是什么？
你跟我说不要为了一个人而失去你该有的朋友
告诉你吧，我在意的根本不是他或她
我才不管他们俩之间到底有几腿、到了什么垒、是不是在一起
因为我已经不在意啦，要怎样就怎样嘛
我在意的是，你们对我的态度
你们知不知道现在你们给我的感觉就是我才是一半插进来的人
我觉得我才是不应该在你们之中出现的人
我不知道为什么你们那么在意她
她不在了，话题也少了
我努力地在找话题聊聊，不过大家都好像没什么反应
也对啦，我已经过时了啦
旧啦，可以丢掉就算了啦，也没什么利用价值了，所以也没用了
不对不对，应该说我从来都没有有利用价值过，只是她们的代替品
这样才对，嗯！
不用跟我说什么你不喜新厌旧的
打死我，我都不会再相信的
从这刻开始呢，我什么都不说、什么反应都不会给
反正有没有我的意见也无所谓了
我何必这样糟蹋自己，让自己那么可怜、卑微地做人
你们就走你们的阳光道、我就走我的独木桥，这样总行了吧
这样对我好，也对你们好
对你们来说，碍眼的东西没啦，可以没阻没挡地讨好人家啦
对我来说，我也不用那么可怜、卑微地做人啦，也不用一直说服自己要忍要忍
累了，你们不累，我累啊
是时候好好休息休息了 :)

Tomorrow I gonna leave Kuching.
Let myself take a break from these all shit stuffs.
Go and rest and relax.
Walk out the world with you guys in and make a try.
When I get enough rest and I started become more stronger I will come back and be the spare tyre of you guys
Don't worry. I won't felt angry anymore after I come back from this trip.
Cos I can only act at this position and character. I'll just make it as a habit one day :) hee.
And that's all for tonight.
Sorry for insulting boys tonight. I mean I have no offense on this. Cos I rather good ;)
Night xx

胜女！

现在的人就一定要那么现实吗？
没用！烂！现实！
是。我知道我没有她美、没有她那么完美，不过你们应该给予女生原本应该拥有的尊重吧？
你可以不喜欢我，但你没资格这样说我
我真的瞎了才会看上你这种人吧？
不用跟我说什么好朋友就可以这样说
这对一个女生来说是最大的伤害
随便你们说什么之前认为我不是典型的女生，现在才发现你跟其他女生根本没什么分别
是。我就是那么平凡、我就是那么丑、我就是那么肥、我就是那么烂，怎样？
我就可以被你们忽略，因为我们是＂好朋友＂；我就可以这样被你们说，因为我们是＂好朋友＂
好朋友！好朋友！好朋友！什么都是以好朋友来当借口
我曾经以这个借口来说服自己，我可以任你们说、讲
对不起，我还是自己的极限的
现在呢，她没在了，组也死了，人更是死了，好了，现在什么都没了，我也不理了
反正也对啦，长到不美，永远都不会有人会注意你的啦
当你生气的时候，就被人家说你小气啦、度量不够大啦，觉得很闲啦
就是啊，怎样?!
反正结论就是，长到不美，你就没办法足立。
我会当胜女，你们等着.
可能这就是胜女的代价吧！

Pray hard & Go with your own heart.

So hi again guys. Finally I can sit down and update my blog properly.

Was busying watching dramas last two weeks. Hehe.

Results was like BOOOO!! Mostly drop. Sokayyy. Cos I didn't study well. Revenge.

Uh-huh. Wasn't in good condition these few days. Turn black when came back from Damai.

Damai was fun this year. Peace and everything went smoothly. 

I couldn't post any photos yet cos Clarence haven't post those photos up.

Was really awesome this year (Y) 

Time really passes fast. Here comes to year end of 2012. No one knows what's happening next.

Cherish what you have now guys!! Do whatever you guys wanted to.

Form 5 gonna end their high school's life in 2 weeks time. Status everywhere.

So Form 4's we left one year in high school. JUST PARTY HARD ROCK'N ROLL 

High school is always the best time in our life. Memorable & Unforgettable.

Chase whoever you like. Do whatever you want. Go wherever you want. 

Just go with your own heart. DON'T REGRET AFTER YOU END YOUR HIGH SCHOOL LIFE.

Guys, trust me you gonna be happy in this coming year. 

I'm going to pray for everyone of you. 

God bless and love you guys xx

装

曾经，你让我深深地期望过我有多少的机会
但是，你把它打碎了
不过，你后来又给我很大很大的希望
再次，你又把它给打碎了
现在，我真的不知道到底是有还是没有

我想我真的陷得很深了
这真的不是我可以控制的，我曾经很努力的想要放弃
不过我才知道要放下一个你真的放入深感情的人，没那么简单
那时我自己已经有心里准备我会受伤的
不管我怎么样去控制自己，我知道不可能的了
唯一的办法，装

装着，我不喜欢你了
装着，我不在意你了
装着，我不在乎你了
装着，我不理了

当我在你面前说不喜欢你了，多虚伪
觉得是在泼自己冷水
觉得是在自己的脸上巴了一巴掌
觉得是在自己的心上狠狠地插了一刀

自己有多辛苦，只有自己能了解
自己有多虚伪，只有自己能了解
爱情，往往都是人的死穴
爱情，往往都是伤害人最深的东西

我知道我没药救了
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